.:Cherish Life & Love:.

life is fragile....
life is to be appreciated and cherished...
not to be made fun and played with...
and definitely not to be wasted..........

love is a feeling...
love can be blind...
love can be triggered at the first sight...
love is complex.....

however.......

before starting to love somebody.....
the first thing to do ..is to love yourself...
if you dunno how to love yourself
u can never love others...
and don't have the rights to love others...
cos you dunno how to love...

.:Today is the Day?!:.

What is a good choice??....and what is a bad choice???
What is a good decision??...and what is a bad decision???
i dun think i still know about it....and i really never know....

but it doesn't really matter i know or not...it doesn't really matter anymore....
cos today is the day...the day that i have to make a choice...the day i have to make a decision...
a choice..which i hope...would make my life better...a decision...which i hope will reduce my burden....

though many people will say that i'd made a selfish decision...made a bad choice...
but...who'd stand on my side and to think for me....how important this choice...this decision is for me...who know how much had i went through...that i have to come up with this decision???

well....i guess...now...it doesn't matter how good or bad is the choice...and is the decision that i had made....cos...i'd already chosen to make that decision...
and all that i can do now...is to live with the decision that i'd chosen...the choice i had made...
and hopefully to be back into my Sunnie-mode again soon....
though i dunno when will it be...but i hope i won't have to wait long for this.....

.: Sleepless + Tiredness + Thinkings = ??? :.

about 2 weeks after Valentine's...and how am i??....
well...still having bits of insomnia...hahaha..not exactly insomnia...more like..can't really sleep at nite..despite being very tired....why??...well i think it's because the tiredness level is too high till like...sleepiness is not in there anymore...so...if u ask me am i tired...yes i am...sleepy??...no i am not...and i dunno why....maybe because...i am still thinking a lot...a lot a lot and a lot...and wat am i thinking??...hahahhaa....almoast everything..........

so..wat had i been doing??...had courseworks datelines to meet...one group coursework...and one 3000 words individual coursework...to hand-in...having days of butterflies in the tummy...waiting for the results of Final Exam in January...missing home...thinking about this...that...these and those...there are jus so many things inside me..and so many more coming into me...piling all up...which will be loading and sinking me soon...and...hopefullly not...*fingers-crossed*...

since i am back in London...i think this is the longest period that i am not in the Sunnie-mode...locking myself in my room...not going out...not hanging out..jus Uni..and back home...and had been sleeping with my Vaio on the table till early morning when i crawl to bed lying on the bed....*oops...chia and daddy n mummy will be worried and start grumbling me again if they know about this...so sorry* ...and i dunno when it had started...i dunno how long will this one go...and i dunno why is it this way??....all i know is...i haven't been sleeping enough for the past few nites...more like the past few dawns...hehehe...why...well...on Monday morning...wake up quite late...cos no class today...but i have group meeting...to complete the report...compile everything and print...and to start my individual report in uni...and my dawn sleeping hours begin......

Monday...did the report...and research...off to bed during Tuesday early dawn around 4am...and wake up 8.30am off to class...and this went on the same for Tuesday and Wednesday nite..whereby...i apparently slept during the dawn too...except that...i am sleeping at the time nearer to late dawn..which is around 5.30am...and wake up around 9.00am and off to class...and the funny thing is..having my body so fatigue..i am supposed to be very sleepy...instead...except for during in the morning which i felt real sleepy...until lunch...where the sleepiness starting to go away...and even me myself too can't believe that i have tat much of energy to stay up till dawn the next day...wow !!!!...by the way..it is Friday dawn now...which i am supposed to sleep on Thursday nite...hehehe..

by the way...this is part of my 3000 words individual report....an advertisement for IKEA which i have to create...hehehehe....


and wat am i doing now??....well..still not sleepy yet...and it had passed 3.00am here...so wat on earth am i doing in London at this hour??..jus back from party??...NOPE !!!....i had been home since after class and submitting my report in uni...and here i am in my room till now....and now...am watching So you Think You Can Dance Season 4 !!! ....hehehehe....

i think my brain is not functioning tat well again...i think..hahaha...
better stop it better it stop functioning...or....become defective...hahahaaha...
soo....
see ya...and yes..i will try to sleep early...and have early rest....early in the nite and not early in the morning...kekkekekekekekke....
*phew lucky me tomolo no class...can have a good rest back home... :)

.: Valentine's in London :.

Happy Valentine's Day everybody...
how did u celebrate this romantic day of the year??...
it's a day to sprinkle love all around...share love with the loved ones....why??...cos love is in the air for all of us....let's "breath-in" lots of love on this romantically loving day...

so how did i celebrate mine??....hahaha.....
many people must be curious how am i celebrating Valentine's in London....
many thought my schedule will be fully packed...with people asking me out for dates etc etc...
some even thought i will receive roses or gifts by Unix from Malaysia...and some even thought that i might be receiving roses from "flies" or "bees" in London...

well...in actual fact...in had only one date today...and tat is...my beloved "Sony Vaio Laptop"...i had been with him the whole Valentine's day...from day till night....
and all those things that the 'many' and 'some' of them thought that might had happened to me during Valentine's did not happen at all....none of those actually happened...

haha...talking back bout this....it's kinda sad right..haha...more like...a boring Valentine's Day for me...not as exciting or as fun as many people thought it was for me...haha...well..wat to do...i am single in London....and...i dun have *market* here...as i'd been telling many...hehe.. :)

anyway...
Happy Valentine's Day everyone...
hope your Valentine's is much more better than me...
muax muax !!!

.: First 48 Hours Spent Back Home :.

YAY!!! Was back home during the Winter Holiday...
arrived KLIA on 1th Dec 2008...our flight is delayed for awhile...me and Chia touched down KLIA at around 6.00pm ++...check out from the immigration...collect our luggages...and head towards the exit to the arrival hall...walking and walking...and....DADDY & MUMMY came to our sight....miss them so much...tears almost roll down my cheeks seeing them standing there waiting for us so patiently...really makes me want to run and fly to them n hug so tightly....mummy seem to got thinner...n daddy seems older already....guess due to all the stress and pressure from his work... :(

upon arrival...we headed to Xenri Japanese Restaurant for dinner...yummy yummy meal...upon arrival...am so so so happy...and ya...LeeBeBe and Lin Yng came along too...and XiaoJiu joined us too...hehehe....missed these Japanese food so much...hahahaa....

.:Xenri Japanese Restaurant:.

after dinner...head back home...and chit chat with everyone....cos uncle n aunt came over too....i just love to be back home...back to the warm and hot...all year round summer Malaysia....well..at least i dun have to be in the very cold London....i always love summer...hehehe...

so...everyone was thinking i should be relaxing and having fun back in KL...ahem**....not exactly actually...well at least not for the first night....why??....on this first nite..LeeBeBe is supposed to sleep with me...by the way LeeBeBe is my cutie little cousin sister...heheh...so...she get herself changed and came into my romm..ready to go to bed..and me???...busy rushing and finishing the report for my Advertising subject...which is to be submitted to the lecturer on 16th Dec....London time...and how long i took to finished it??..apparently...the whole nite....and...i didn't even sleep until like around 10am in the morning...which is the time after LeeBeBe got up...unbelievably...i spent my firsat night back home...in front of my laptop..on my blue table..seeing the sunrise... [hmm..should had take the pic of sunrise...missed it.. :( ]...sleeping at 10.am...and have to wake up later 1.00pm for my photoshoot at 4.00pm....wow !!!!....so....crawled to bed at 10.00am...and i could hardly fall asleep...cos...too tired...and for LeeBeBe...she wouldn't dare to sleep with me again...cos she had been sleeping alone on my blue bed...when she is so afraid of sleeping alone...hehe....

wat happened later???...like said...i woke up at 1.00pm..which i had to...but seriously....i couldn't wake up...missed my bed so much...and am so so so sleepy....cos i havent been sleeping much in the plane as well....thanks to Unix...who had came to pick me up for the photoshoot...came n wake me up with LeeBeBe...heehe....then....get my showered and all dressed up....and off to lunch...and my mom was like... "u sure u have enough sleep and energy for the photoshoot later?"...i was like...why not??...and wait a minute...this means she actually know i slept at 10 int he morning....she was like..."lee bebe told me u slept at 10am"...then she was like...ok ok ..go for lunch....and off for lunch i went...and..before i leave...mom was like...dun come back so late...u havent been sleeping....u need to come home n rest...i was like..ok ok ..will try...depending wat time the shooting ends.......

so...off to meet the photographer....thanks to Unix for fetching me all around....once in his car car...i apparently....go into deep sleep straight away....am really happy tat he did not complained me sleeping in the car instead of accompanying him chit chatting....cos we haven't meet for 3 months....more like...lucky to have such a considerate Unix with me..hehehe..thank u !!!!!...so upon meeting the photographer...have to go to the make up artist place...get the make up and hair done...and off to this abandoned site for the 1st part of the photoshoot...the theme of the shooting..."the back lane"....dark and cool....

.:Photoshoot Part 1 - Abandoned Site:.

then...followed by Part 2 of the photoshoot...which is at this back lane in KL...and it is during the night...so...it's kinda scary...not really scary..more like awkward....cos...hehe...many ppl were looking at us during the photoshoot...especially the passer-by...hehehe...cos there are outdoor lightings with spotlights etc...hahaha...

.:Photoshoot Part 2 - Back Lane:.

the shooting end about 9pm...then...we moved on to the restaurant for dinner...hmm...really can't imagine me being able to do all these...more like have the energy n strength to do all these after not sleeping the whole nite doing the report...where did those energy come from...hahaha...so..wat we had for dinner...Korean food...which i had a lot in London...can't believe this...i dun usually eat Korean more like never..when i am in KL..then when i was in London..i tend to eat quite a lot of Korean food...and am liking it though...hahaha...

.:Korean Dinner:.

of cos...have to thank the 2 photographers for the great photographs...hehehe...here they are...hehe..thank u so much...hmm...by the way..they still owe me the photos !!!...got to call them send the photos to me....

.:Shan and the Photographers:.

Dinner ended at around 11pm..and for me..head home after tat???...no...not yet...though mumy called n asked why am i not back yet..cos she is so worried that i do not have enough sleep...but am still not heading abck home yet...where did i go??....drinking with my group of close frens...drinking as in..in the Cafe...not clubs or pubs...hehehe...so...finally...wat time did i reached home??....about 1.30am...am exhausted till the max!!!!!!!!!!

but am not tat tired...maybe..cos...i'd exceeded the max level of tiredness..thus...am not feeling tired or sleepy anymore..and maybe due to the jet-lag too....so wat had i done...??...went to surf online...chat with my frens back in London..and went to bed at around 5am...hahahaha.....cant believe i still have energy left to spare...hahahahhahaha....

basically...tat's what i'd done during the first 48 hours back home...