you think you can be kind enough...."shut an eye" ....and let it go...so that this particular incident will stop bugging you...or perhaps burdening or hurting you....
but in fact...when you thought you really don't mind at all and had finally let it go....you actually had never...and you can't seem to let it go....
and when you found out that you had never let it go...."it" just keep bugging you....and had planted itself deep inside your heart....
Many times...our mind knows it...our mind clearly knows that it is the past....knows that it's all over already...and there's nothing to be worried about....cos you'd already got what you needed and wanted the most....
But....our Heart....sometimes does not tell us the same thing as our Mind does...cos deep down inside our heart.... in one hidden corner in our heart....we still can't let it go...and "it" still affect us...unconsciously....it still does...and when this hidden corner of our heart is being dug out....it hurts....a lot....really....it is really painful....and if there's second chance...i would rather it to be kept hidden forever.....
When will i really ever be able to let it go totally??....when only will i be truthful enough and say..."Yes...i really don't mind...anymore..it's the past already"....when can i really accept it that it's all the past??
I dunno....perhaps it take days...months...years....or even decades.....just hope that this day come soon.....so that the pain will subside soon.....
Quote: Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present....
Had this past spoil my present ???....or it had just only injured me??..........
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