.:mid autumn festival...happy??? scary ??? :.

it's the Mid Autumn Festival (Mooncake Festival) on Tuesday .:25.09.2007:.
am home alone...but celebrating the mid autumn festival with frens...my bunch of frens came over to have dinner..more like a Moonlight party at my house's garden...the moon is real real beautiful tonight...if get to enjoy the view with loved ones..wouldn't it be romantic??...hee...

well...was busy the whole day today...from morning till late nite..woke up early..did all the prayers and off to work..after work..busy preparing for the night..

and finally the moon came out and the night began..really have to thank my group of frens for making it such a great nite a great experience for me...
we ate, chat, watch tv, lid the lanterns and candles..and even the rain is jealous of the fun we had i guess...hehe...that it actually rained tat nite...haha...but seriously..it'd been a pretty long time since the whole group of us all meet up and have fun...really appreciate tat night a lot..

but something unexpected actually happened tat nite while we were having fun...my neighbour's house alarm triggered and rang..we were thinking it was not a big matter and din take any pre-caution..and we did not find anything fishy at nite either....until when the rain stopped around midnight...one of my neighbour called and told me tat it was my neighbour's house alarm and that the maid saw someone in all black..wearing a mask..knocked on her window..i was like...waT ! ! ! dun scare me...i'll be staying at home alone tonight..i dun wanna to sleep in fear....am really scared..

i told my best fren about it...and both of us plus her bf go all around my house to scout and see whether is there anything fishy and to lock all doors n windows...my frens in the house was like..wat are the 3 of them doing..hahahahaha....then i started to get daddy in uk to call me...am really scared..dunno wat to do...really sorry papa n mama n xiao fei n chia n yee for causing u all to be worried bout me while you all are supposed to be enjoying the holiday in uk...really sorry..but am really scared ah....

my frens left around 1 am...my best fren left around 1.30am...and i shall say thanks a lot for taking such good care of me...especially 'him'...thanks a lot...thanks a million for staying over to keep me calm and to accompany me and most importantly to help me to not to think bout the incident in my neighbours house...cos i'm really very very scared...really thanks a lot....THANK YOU ! ! !

THANKS A LOT MY DEAR FRENS ! ! !
Really THANKS A MILLION ! ! !

Thoughts: Always Appreciate all that we have and appreciate the people around us and remember...a person cannot live with family n frens...cos life will be miserable without them..thanks my dear frens.... ! ! !

.:home aLone... :.

family had went to UK for holiday on Tuesday..and today is my 4th day being home alone...hmm..had already slept 3 nites all alone in this big house...really missed my family a lot...missed them so much that it makes me almost sleep in tears every nite.. :( really felt lonely at home...
but..luckily my uncle n aunt n cousins are very caring where they came over to have dinner with me..and also luckily i also have a group of very good frens who came n accompany me and bring me out for those 3 nites..they came n accompanied me till late and when they left...lonesome come to Sunnie again...

to many ppl out there..i give them a perception tat i'm a very tough person..with strong personality..that can stand firm n strong...but wat's inside me??? they never knows..and it don't seem to be possible for them to know unless their 6th or 7th sense is real great...

actually...are there really all these 6th n 7th sense?..wat are intuitions?..they seem to vague..are they merely jus feelings and thoughts??...where our heart n mind meet to feel the future??..does this really exists??..i can't deny it..but how can i agree with it??...i really dunno...at times these kinds of things seems scary to me..especially when wat my 6th sense or intuition felt do came into live...

and recently...i dunno what m i feeling...had very mixed feelings..is it because my mind n heart are moving separately in different direction??...and thus causing me not knowing wat's in my mind..and lead to a different Sunnie now...dunno how long can these go on and when will it end...more like..i dunno whether i want to put an end to this a not...
what's wrong with me??..what'd happened to me?? if u asked...i really dunno..tat's wat i can say...i dunno...

well..i have a fren...who tell me to find someone to talk to when i'm down or etc..he asked me to talk to ppl and dun keep everything to myself...but because of the betrayal i'd faced before..i'd become not willing..more like dun dare to tell others...and dunno why...without needing me to tell him my things..he jus seemed to know that i'm not fine...

and another person like this is my best-est fren...she's my best listener and the best person i'll talk to when i'm down..and she just seems to know me..i dun have to say much to her and she jus knows...she have very big influence on me..cos she's like my sis...and because we are so close..there are times where i choose not to tell her some things..cos i dun wan her to be worried bout me..
more like..besides of the reason of betrayal..i dun tell ppl due to not wanting to make them worried...thus rather keep it to my own...

haih..i really dunno wat's wrong with me...dunno wat m i writing here...is it because of being home alone..thus in such empty space..many things jus pop-up in my mind...

and because of these...me have really mixed feelings now...really wanna go for hols or away from kl for a moment to relax..feel like going to genting or some mountain to chill out and scream everything out....aaahhhhh ! ! !
really wan my family to be back soon......AAAAAHHHHHH.... ! !

Quote: even the happiest person on earth also have unhappy moments...same goes to ...even the strongest person do have their weakest moment..cos nobody is perfect..and are these the symptoms of my bi-personality?? or i really have it all these while..jus me myself dun wanna admit it???

Thought: learn to appreciate everything when u r having it when u have it close to u..dun come too late to appreciate it..cos there are really times when it is jus too late....as there's no turn-back in time.............

.:what a weekend:.

wat a weekend i had..should i make it a "wow" or "oh ok!"..so undecided..which to call it...
well...had a pretty filled-up more like full-scheduled weekend..

firstly..should actually talk bout the "Sunny" luck tat i had on Friday..hehe..was pretty lucky till even me myself too find it kinda unbelievable..or..these kind of things do happen??
wat happened??..ok..here the story goes..am working half day today..cos took half day off from work to let myself have enough rest and prepare for Jacky Cheung's concert tat night..but din really work half day ler..cos have to distribute mooncake to my clients right after lunch..

thus after lunch..went to distribute the mooncake..on the way to the 1st client..the sky seems cloudy and raindrops are falling on my windscreen..with me mumbling "please dont rain"..the sun really did come out when i reached the clients place..and then the lucky me can jus walk around without umbrella..hee..

there's a saying tat good things dun usually come twice..and this really came twice..thus after 1st client..on the way to my 2nd client's place which takes about 20mins drive..heavy downpour covered my "Smart" car..and here goes Sunnie begging for the rain to stop as i dun wanna to get wet..

and there come the "Sunny" luck again..before turning-in the junction to my client's office..the sun came out to shine my day and brought the rain away..haha..how coincidence..or shall i say how lucky...kekeke...

after dinner..went to Jacky's concert at Bukit Jalil..it's my 1st time attending his concert..and it's MARVELLOUS..it's one of the longest 'solo' concert i'd been to..he sang for 3 1/2 hours long..really had fun singing n waving n moving and swaying with my bunch of crazy frens..hahaha...

.: The Year of Jacky Cheung World Tour 2007 Concert at Bukit Jalil National Stadium, Malaysia...14th September 2007 :.

moving on to Saturday..was kinda like running here n there..busy moving around..haha..went to did manicure n pedicure..cos have to use up the voucher which i'd got..and it's due on Saturday..thus have to go down to Damansara to get it used up n my nails painted..this time..me tried different colour..had dark colours on all my nails...at first sight it looks kinda weird..but now..it seems alright to me..kekekekeke....

after having my nails 'maked-up'..went home to have a look at my new Sony Vaio CR notebook..my new notebook had arrived finally..really love it lots..muax muax muax...but..i can only use it for like until Monday..and will have to lend it to my bro to bring over to UK...and the nex time me seeing my new Vaio CR will be in December..3 months from now.. :( gonna miss my notebook a lot.. :( but do i have a choice?..no..cos he really need the notebook more than i do.....

then to take my evening nap..something which i'd not done in a long time..haha...and guessed wat..during dinner time...(actually not exactly dinner..cos jus went down to have a bowl of soup)..my dad n bro starting to grab hold of me and said "Shan..u thin ad ah?? why so thin ad one"..i was like "HUH ???" i jus weighed myself during my shower n i'd put on weight..but they jus kept on experimenting me...

both my dad n bro was like comparing my look now n my look 1 year ago..i was like.."HAR ??"..why so sudden??..it really surprised me..haha...well..luckily did not mention to them that i'd only had 2 pieces of donut the whole day..hahaha...

and..my frens knew i din eat tat day..thus they came n brought me n my bestfren out for a fatty meal..which is supper...wow...really dun remember when was the last supper i took..hahaha...anyway..really have to thank them for purposely come all the way down to fetch me n bring me go eat..thanks ! ! !

after eating..i really cant sleep..cos really full..though only had a few bites here n there..haha...tat night..more like that day / dawn..i slept the nex morning at around 6am..and guessed wat time me wake up???

woke up 9.30 in the morning to go breakfast with my family...really very tired n sleepy..but no choice...it's Sunday = family day...thus have to go..cannot reject...

after breakfast..off to shopping..wanted to buy this blue sports shoe n this blue polo t-shirt so much..but dun have my size.. :( how unlucky..but in return i bought a pair of blue slippers..hee...then as time passes by..moving on to the late afternoon time..i'm getting more and more tired n sleepy...my eyes are jus so tired..but i cant sleep...thus i'll have to get hold of the tired-ness n sleepi-ness till home...

got home finally..but..can't sleep..shut my eyes for hours..but still cant sleep..cos my mind my brain is still functioning n not resting..thus had deep conversation with a few frens..and got to know bout things i never knew..more like i din wan to know..not really tat i din wan to know..but i shall put it as..i din wan to accept wat i know cos i dun wan it to happen..hahaha...anyway..i still knew it and all i can do now is hope tat it wont happen..haha...this shows tat my intuitions are aint tat bad hor..hahahaha....

and very naturally..after all these talks..i can sleep finally...maybe because i'd cleared-out all the thoughts tat had been mingling in my mind..and tat my brain is now resting ad...

guess i'm really very tired..cos i dun remember having a dream...i used to hear ppl say tat..when u r in a deep sleep without dreams..tat's good..cos u r really resting fully thoroughly..n ur brain is also as well..and the reason to deep sleep is when u r very very tired...hahaha....

wow...never thought i'd written so much here...kakakaka...

Thoughts: Things do change..the weather changes unpredictably..wat else human being..ppl do change..either externally or internally..so no matter wat..jus make sure tat i am still me..tat's more than enough ad..cos there are many things in life that i cannot more like not capable to do anything bout it..cos it's not up to me alone only.........

muax! tata...

.:a new blog:.

it'd been a pretty long time since the last blog i wrote...hmm..let's see..it had been like more than a year already...

well..still remember the old days during my university years where me n my best-est fren have our own blog and we post up things tat happened around us during uni-years...never thought i'll start writing blog again..especially when i'd started working now...hmm..time really flies huh....

my previous blog's name is also known as the blue paradise...why??? cos i'm a super fan of blue colour...and really wanna to have a blue paradise for myself...currently..my blue paradise lies in my room...which is filled with BLUE...hehe...it's also my lone-some chamber...hahaha

actually...am kinda scared to post up blog...due to the betrayal tat had happened to me years back..hopefully...history wont repeat itself..or else...depression will come seek for me again...i dun wan that...

many things happened to me these few months...more like for this one year plus...had done many stupid n crazy things that i'd never done before..and all i wish now is to look forward...to have a strong career...work hard towards my aims..my dreams...and my goals...so...wish me luck !

the weather is rainy n cloudy here...this really reminds me when my fren used to ask me...sunnie...where are u??..why did u let rainy n cloudy out??..hahaha...funny huh...kekeke....hmm...it's really a nice weather for a sleep...also a very moody weather...but luckily the sun did come out awhile during my photoshoot...well..sunnie did come out for awhile after all..hahaha...

and hopefully...my dear fren rainy n cloudy will not pay me a visit next year...cos i'll be going to Jacky Cheungs concert tomolo nite...it's been a long time since he last hold a concert here in K.L, Malaysia...co my dear fren rainy n cloudy...ur dear fren sunnie is buzy tomolo..hehehehe.....

okler..i better get back to work before my boss is back...hahahaha....

today's Quote: everything happen with a meaning..instead of ignoring it..why not figure it out n make it meaningful?

muax.

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