.: HappiNess... :.

from the comments on the previous blog entry...

yes..i do agree with wat HGL n R..said..

though i dunno who are u both in person...or perhaps maybe i do know u in real...but dunno ur identity here...but anyway...thanks for the comments...

to me...i think...things are always easier to be said than done...

many people in this world too wanna live the life of..happily go luckily...but in fact..how many of them actually live tat way???

to me...i always tell myself..happiness is the seek of a lifetime...and if i was allowed to...i would really want to make the happiness i had is also the happiness to people around me...but many times...i'd chosen to forgo my own happiness for others' happiness....and because of my this stupid attitude n perception of mind...

one of my fren had scolded me for it...he said...i'd lived for 20++ years...i'd had almost everything in life..but one most important thing in live i never had..tat's happiness...he said..for 20+++ years...i'd yet learn to make myself happy...he even asked..wat's the point of me making others happy while me staying in the chamber of forgoing mine??..

but to me...i had been happy before...i was not down or etc all the time...for me...seeing people around me to be happy...makes me happy...though...tat happy look..my close frens say it's just the outer appearance of mine...wat's really inside me...nobody knows except for me...but on the other side of me..if i know because of fulfilling my own happiness will bring unhappiness to others..i would start to become down and felt guilty...

why is this in me??...is it because i'd never grow??.. or it's me like this all these while???

another fren of mine...said i follow my mind too much..he advised me to follow my heart...well...i too wish that i can jus follow my heart...but it ended...the same...

i'd once tried to follow wat my heart tells me to do...but...this only make me alone happy...and i found out tat the people around me..definitely there's one party not happy with it...i dun like this feeling at all..it make me feel tat i'm so stingy..so selfish...and this feeling sucks...hurts me a lot...very the 难受...

thus...i'd decided to follow my mind..to think with my mind first before taking the next step...keeping the stress & 烦恼 to myself...

haha...today's entry seems so much like talking crap n rubbish...kekeke...sometimes..i felt so ironic...i'd chosen the name Sunnie...trying to be happy n bright like the sun..to bring me to the bright colour of yellow with a big bright smile..but...in fact..i'm still stuck to my blue emotions...i'm still the blue me..hehehe...how ironic...blue cold sun...hahahahahaha....

Quote to share: Respect for self, Respect for other & Responsibility for all ur actions.......

so...does my thought of trying to make everyone n even myself filled with happiness always...considered as respect for self n others n responsibilites for all my actions??

however this...is a lifetime long responsibilities..a task tat is very difficult to be achieved...so...wish me luck !!!!

.: Family...Love...Frens...Life... :.

Family 亲情....Love 爱情...Frens 友情...
these are the 3 said more important elements of *Life*...
however...it's always very difficult to fulfill the parties from these 3 elements...

i remember when i was young..there's once..this old uncle told me this..
"every human being need 3 important things to survive...that is Family, Love & Frens...without these 3 things...a human being's life is never complete.."

wat this old uncle said had always been in me until now...at first i thought...i had already *have* n *own* all these 3 elements...is already a complete life...however..the older i grew..the older i am...i found out...it's not having these 3 elements that matters...wat matters most...which is also the most difficult part is...to maintain the relationship with the parties of these 3 elements...to find a balance in all these 3 elements...and also to make all the parties from 3 elements...into one big element...3 become 1..into happiness...

because in all these 3 elements...we only seek for one similarity...a common element among the 3...which is the seek for *happiness*....and this happiness is the seek for a life time....

and until now...after my 24th birthday...i can only really fully understand wat the uncle was trying to tell me then...only after so many years...i can understand the meaning behind those words...

well..maybe this is jus another philosophy of life...and because of these philosophy of life...it'd made us who we are today....people grows everyday...people changes everyday...and so does our thoughts...wat seems to be right for us in the past may seems right for us now...wat we had understood in the past may not be wat we understand now...

so all i can say is...to learn everyday...to appreciate everyone..everyday...every thing...and most importantly is to love yourself...a master once told me..before we can start to love others...we would have to start loving ourselves....

Thoughts: Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift..tat's why it is called present.........

my birthday celebration had past...thus it's a history ad...though it'd ended with lots of mixed thoughts n feelings...tomolo..is always a mystery for me..but will these mixed thought n feelings stick to me???...and today...amd sure these mixed thoughts n feelings are still with me..till present...
so..i'd made myself a task to accomplish...until one day...when these mixed thoughts n feelings leave me...

.: wAt a fuNny luNcH :.

hehe...
something very funny happened today...in fact...just now...kekekeke...

me and my colleagues (ting fong and ah fun) went out for lunch opposite our office just now...jia huei did not come along as she is having lunch with her frens...so only 3 of us...we were thinking as we are only having lunch at opposite our office...so we did not bring our office keys out...

after lunch we just walk back to our office as usual...and to our surprised...the office grille door is locked...and we din bring our keys...o.m.g...how??...so we ended up standing at the stairs...waiting n hoping jia huei or our bosses will be back soon to open the door...it was so hot...3 of us...like soh poh..sweating...detoxify-ing...at the stairway...waiting and chit chatting...

until...we heard a very familiar ring tone..it's one of our boss' hp ring tone..yay!!!..finally someone is here to open the door for us...but but but...to our surprise is..we waited for so long but we did not see him...thus ah dun went up to ring the door bell...but nobody opened the door...however we still hear our boss talking on the phone...so i walked down to the corridor n see whether is my boss there...and..there was no sign of my boss anywhere...

we walked back up and heard my boss still talking n laughing on the phone...thus we ringed the door bell again..but still no reply...we are confirmed that our boss is in the office..with the grille door locked and him not knowing...haih...this means that we..3 of us...had been standing there for about 20 minutes..only we come to know that our boss is in the office..omg...20 minutes in the stuffy stairway...hahahaha...thinking back also felt so stupid n silly...hahahaha...

after we heard our boss finished talking on the phone..we ringed the door bell once again..but no reply..thus i called my boss n told him we are outside the grille door...and we do not have the keys to open the door...hahahaha..my boss was like ..okok..i open the door now...he really din know that the grille door is locked...haha...once the door is opened...we were like...air cond~~...cool breeze~~...yay !!!!!!

after opening the door for us...my boss told us that..he knew that we were at the stairway...he heard us chit chatting there...was wondering wat were we doing there at the stairway for so long and still dun wan to come upstairs to the office yet..he went n look at the cctv..n saw us..he thought we were busy taking photos at the stairway...he was thinking wat is there so nice to take photos there...hahaha...

we were like..noooooo....we dun have the keys to go in..and we thought there are nobody in the office...so we waited there n chit chat...and detoxify ourselves through sweat..hahahahahahahahahaha...

how silly...funny n embarrassing...ahahahahahaha....

Quote to share:*When something happens to u, good or bad, consider what it means...there's a purpose to life's event, to teach u how to laugh more and not to cry too hard...*
hahaha..guess this life's event of lunch of mine is something i will have to laugh about...and definitely not to cry about...hehe...and from this silly event...it'd brought me n my colleagues an unforgettable silly experience..hahaha...another similarity to us in Chameleon Integrated...kekekeke...