from the comments on the previous blog entry...
yes..i do agree with wat HGL n R..said..
though i dunno who are u both in person...or perhaps maybe i do know u in real...but dunno ur identity here...but anyway...thanks for the comments...
to me...i think...things are always easier to be said than done...
many people in this world too wanna live the life of..happily go luckily...but in fact..how many of them actually live tat way???
to me...i always tell myself..happiness is the seek of a lifetime...and if i was allowed to...i would really want to make the happiness i had is also the happiness to people around me...but many times...i'd chosen to forgo my own happiness for others' happiness....and because of my this stupid attitude n perception of mind...
one of my fren had scolded me for it...he said...i'd lived for 20++ years...i'd had almost everything in life..but one most important thing in live i never had..tat's happiness...he said..for 20+++ years...i'd yet learn to make myself happy...he even asked..wat's the point of me making others happy while me staying in the chamber of forgoing mine??..
but to me...i had been happy before...i was not down or etc all the time...for me...seeing people around me to be happy...makes me happy...though...tat happy look..my close frens say it's just the outer appearance of mine...wat's really inside me...nobody knows except for me...but on the other side of me..if i know because of fulfilling my own happiness will bring unhappiness to others..i would start to become down and felt guilty...
why is this in me??...is it because i'd never grow??.. or it's me like this all these while???
another fren of mine...said i follow my mind too much..he advised me to follow my heart...well...i too wish that i can jus follow my heart...but it ended...the same...
i'd once tried to follow wat my heart tells me to do...but...this only make me alone happy...and i found out tat the people around me..definitely there's one party not happy with it...i dun like this feeling at all..it make me feel tat i'm so stingy..so selfish...and this feeling sucks...hurts me a lot...very the 难受...
thus...i'd decided to follow my mind..to think with my mind first before taking the next step...keeping the stress & 烦恼 to myself...
haha...today's entry seems so much like talking crap n rubbish...kekeke...sometimes..i felt so ironic...i'd chosen the name Sunnie...trying to be happy n bright like the sun..to bring me to the bright colour of yellow with a big bright smile..but...in fact..i'm still stuck to my blue emotions...i'm still the blue me..hehehe...how ironic...blue cold sun...hahahahahaha....
Quote to share: Respect for self, Respect for other & Responsibility for all ur actions.......
so...does my thought of trying to make everyone n even myself filled with happiness always...considered as respect for self n others n responsibilites for all my actions??
however this...is a lifetime long responsibilities..a task tat is very difficult to be achieved...so...wish me luck !!!!